I'm Lonely Most of the Time

I'm one of those people who can basically sit in a room full of people and still feel utterly alone. It's not that I don't have friends, or anyone to talk to. I do. I don't want more "friends". I want someone who understands. Someone I can count on. Someone I don't have to be afraid to tell I'm upset. That I can tell my "deepest darkest secret" too and they won't care. They will listen no matter what. Because most times, that's all I need. Is to vent. To someone. Anyone. But people never last long. And I hate that. I want a friend I can trust to stay with me. Through all the bad things. You can have a million friends. But what you really need is that one best friend.