I Hate It .

I hate being disabled , some days arnt too bad but alot of the time doing the most simple of things is physically and mentally draining .I lay down and it feels like my whole body just collapses .It feels like every muscle in my body just gives way all at the same time ,its a really wierd feeling .
I hate feeling tired all the time and struggling to do simple things even breathing can be hard at times .If I yawn or breath deeply it feels like I have been punched in the chest .Ever since leaving hospital , because my heart is badly damaged and swollen I can feel it beating . Its been 4 years but if I stop and think about it I can still feel it as it takes up alot of room in my chest allowing less room for my lungs etc .