I Really Want To Be Wanted
"I want you to want me..."
I hate feeling unwanted. I've always felt this way, and it's tears me up inside. I really wish there was someone that truly wanted to be with me. It's gotten so bad that I'm starting to misinterpret simple niceties as flirting or interest when in actuality it was just someone being cordial.
"What do I have to do, to make you want me?"
I know that I shouldn't reconstruct myself just to appease someone because it wouldn't be genuine; it would be a lie and unjust for all involved parties. However, it does make me wonder what exactly I could do to make myself more attractive without changing who I am. I know confidence is vital, but it's difficult to muster an attractive amount of self-confidence when you are filled with doubt and self-loathing. Exercise is a good way to foster good self esteem and a positive self image; if I feel good about how I appear then that should reflect outwards, right? Again, finding the motivation to commit to an exercise regimen is also difficult when you have such a negative self image, but I guess it's one of those steps you have to make.
I hate feeling unwanted. I've always felt this way, and it's tears me up inside. I really wish there was someone that truly wanted to be with me. It's gotten so bad that I'm starting to misinterpret simple niceties as flirting or interest when in actuality it was just someone being cordial.
"What do I have to do, to make you want me?"
I know that I shouldn't reconstruct myself just to appease someone because it wouldn't be genuine; it would be a lie and unjust for all involved parties. However, it does make me wonder what exactly I could do to make myself more attractive without changing who I am. I know confidence is vital, but it's difficult to muster an attractive amount of self-confidence when you are filled with doubt and self-loathing. Exercise is a good way to foster good self esteem and a positive self image; if I feel good about how I appear then that should reflect outwards, right? Again, finding the motivation to commit to an exercise regimen is also difficult when you have such a negative self image, but I guess it's one of those steps you have to make.
46-50, M
