I Battle Depression and Anxiety

@moonthesolitary: I've been there, even attempted suicide, and though advice from others has limited value, please remember how easily our minds can spin out of control, sorta like a rolling growing snowball -- despair, panic, or even just a big blob of blah nothing. It's a bad habit of ugly perspective, a trap easy to get into, and only a tiny bit of work & trust in yourself to escape. Because the effort to focus on something else feels forced at first, it's too easy to call the effort phony BS. Fake it til you make it, the 12-steppers say. It helped me to think of the difference between this pain and, let's say, some catastrophe like an earthquake forcing you to abandon everything you were feeling to focus on immediate survival. Life suddenly feels much more precious -- my point is how quickly your perspective can change, and how a lack of problems can create the depression problem. So many of the world's people are too busy dealing with their hunger and/or illness to obsess on their feelings. And like an exercise program to go from flabby to healthy toned muscles, a little bit of work regularly, steadily applied soon yields results. Mindfulness meditation, sitting still, listening to my deep gentle breathing, returning to a safe core where I know I'm safe & comfortable, then calmly looking & listening to my surroundings without value judgment, just simple facts at first, built my self-confidence. Pardon me, don't mean to get preachy. Peace & best wishes. Not proudly but thankfully.

I suffer from depression, and anxiety. I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a while now. You never fully get rid of the cycles, but with the right community and practice. You can have better days than bad ones. Personally did a lot of educating myself. Made a mental list/notes of everything that was bringing me down. That way I could work on them one-by-one. Making a schedule helped me so much. Without one, I gave up pretty quick on things. Chose to sleep instead of organize myself. You wouldn't imagine having a routine for yourself to help in any way but it did for me. I started finding hobbies to squeeze in. keep myself busy, and from thinking too much.

Have you tried meditation? There are guided, positive affirmation audios on YouTube. With a bit of practice, it could help coach you into finding proper clarity.

I also did a lot of small things that, at first, didn't believe were going to help me at all. Like opening a window, and airing your room out with fresh air. Buying a water feature for your room, to listen to- etc.

Best of luck!

I'm with you,no one to talk with.Every body I have tried to talk with says things like (snap out of it, oh you're having a pity party,oh he's just sad)or some people will laugh and make fun of you.And then you got those people that you love and trust telling you that they are going to leave you and you will never see them again if you don't straight up.