I Battle Depression and Anxiety

I totally get this. It's the worst feeling ever. I'm sitting in my office fighting back tears for the second day in a row. When I get home, I isolate myself from everyone just to sit and cry. This is totally unlike me but I know things will eventually get better over time and I hope they do for you too. Sending hugs your way!

I don't really know where to begin I can remember the darkness that engulfed me well. The feeling that I could no longer carry on that people would be better off if I wasn't here and that I wouldn't be missed the feelings of failure overwhelmed me I was disgusted with myself everything is falling apart everything is going wrong I can't get anything right. What is wrong with me I can't concentrate I am barley functioning even the easiest of tasks have become so difficult to do. I have no energy no enthusiasm and really no reason to live anymore. Im tired all the time and ive lost the will to fight as I have spent the last 15 years fighting for one thing or another. I can see any end to the misery that is my life. I yearn for it all to end and for my pain to leave me in peace. I'm tired of living a lie and hiding myself from the world, fearing that all eyes are on me and there judging me. I have been unable to verbalise my thoughts, my fears, my pain, anything for that matter. Just a never ending record player of negativity torturing my mind.The mask I wore was a facade. I could never allow anyone to see my weakness, to feel sorry for me or add fuel to the gossipers. To be so fake in such a real environment, to pretend all was right with my world when it had crumbled to the ground.Totally engrossed in myself, I have become a person I so dispise. I can barely function and be the selfless, caring and empathitic person I once was. I no longer recognise who I was anymore. I just hope with the help of my GP and my meds and my recent referral for counciling it will help me on my journey to recovery. I know I've a long way to go before I feel anything like normal. I so long for the day that I conquer my demons and become the person I once was.

It's a dark place to be. Paralazing I have gotten out off bed for three days now. I've been depressed before some days are just better but this is by far the worse depression I've been in. It's dead inside.

It's horrible. Apparently we were hit by a tornado I didn't even notice. I haven't left the house in over a week i have isolated myself complety from everyone I don't answer calls nothing. This is depression.

Those days feel awful, and I'm so glad you can work from home, at least. I hope it passes soon.

I fell down that black hole on Sunday, so I remained quiet and alone on Monday...it helped.

I know the feelings well i to suffer with severe anxiety and depression. Every day is a constant struggle im taking my meds but I still haven't found the right ones or combination yet.

Awww hugs.. Feel better soon

Hugs @Jay. ☹️

Its a dark day no one gets you unless you've been there. I wouldn't wish my life on my worst enermy. I've been struggling for years before I finally found the strength to seek help last year before I did anything really stupid as the thoughts were getting stronger and more frequent . It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
But the best thing i did or i would not be here to say this.
Sending lots of love to all of us that suffer in silence big hugs people x

Sorry to hear that. Can relate. Somewhat. I hope it gets better for you.

((hugs))