I Like To Express Myself
Let me address what I consider to be the elephant in the room. This is a subject i don't talk about with the friends I make on here, coworkers, or new acquaintances. I'm 26 years old and still living with my parents. In my conversations with people I don't talk much about where I live and how I survive with working part time in a minimum wage job while still going to school. I'm unable to get closer to people because of the embarrassment I would feel admitting that I'm 26 and still living with my parents.
It doesn't help much when I get into bouts of insecurity, social anxiety, and overall awkwardness. I't makes living with my parents worst when i feel socially inadequate especially when trying to form relationships with new people. When I'm socially confident its not too bad. I guess I have reasons for being 26 and still not having learned to be a independent adult. I've lacked major and crucial social skills for a significant portion of my life. My lack of social skills i feel almost reached the point of autism if I may say, like at the edge but not quite.
Nowadays through a lot of unnecessary hardship i have manged to learn more competent social skills. I guess one could say at the levels of what one would consider normal. It can be tremendously empowering and confidence building. I can finally make more plans for the future and work on long term projects as opposed to living day by day.
Back to my main point, I don't feel proud of living with my parents at 26. It is my embarrassing secret and it makes it hard to form new friendships or find new jobs for some reason. I don't like lying to people and try to be as honest as possible. When people ask me about my living conditions I panic. My solution thus far is to say i roommate, which I technically do and it doesn't count as lying, its just omission of detail.
It doesn't help much when I get into bouts of insecurity, social anxiety, and overall awkwardness. I't makes living with my parents worst when i feel socially inadequate especially when trying to form relationships with new people. When I'm socially confident its not too bad. I guess I have reasons for being 26 and still not having learned to be a independent adult. I've lacked major and crucial social skills for a significant portion of my life. My lack of social skills i feel almost reached the point of autism if I may say, like at the edge but not quite.
Nowadays through a lot of unnecessary hardship i have manged to learn more competent social skills. I guess one could say at the levels of what one would consider normal. It can be tremendously empowering and confidence building. I can finally make more plans for the future and work on long term projects as opposed to living day by day.
Back to my main point, I don't feel proud of living with my parents at 26. It is my embarrassing secret and it makes it hard to form new friendships or find new jobs for some reason. I don't like lying to people and try to be as honest as possible. When people ask me about my living conditions I panic. My solution thus far is to say i roommate, which I technically do and it doesn't count as lying, its just omission of detail.
