I Am Insecure

I really wish I wasn't, I just feel as if my partner isn't being honest with me I'm always going to come second to him when it comes to his female friend who just happened to pop outta nowhere into his life and his inboxes this year, he never mentioned her or anything and it's almost been a year I've been with him. I keep thinking he spent a few days with her this past mother's day when he was supposed to be with his family in the city to be with his brother who had passed away this weekend, r.i.p and I haven't heard from him since he left on Saturday , I've been here waiting on him to text me back he said he would text me and send pics but i havent heard from him, yet! I've been keeping his son since he been away, I really hope he didn't spend a few days with her.