I Am Insecure

Every Day.... The past two years I fought off the insecurities because I was naive and blinded by obsession. Not anymore, though. I have been disillusioned and now I'm plagued by my insecurities every day.

I am unable to relax, I am unable to stop worrying and I'm unable to forget. In one moment everything changed and I've been unable to shut off ever since. My body is in an almost constant state of anxiety... and I don't know whether I should run and hide or stay and fight. I'm in a state of perpetual mental and physical turmoil. Yet it seems I'm the only one that feels this way. It seems we just shoved the issue under the rug - but I remember everything. And I keep waiting for this glass world of mine to shatter into a million pieces.

My usual methods of escape have proven to be pointless and I have no where left to run. So every day I sit and listen to these insecurities yelling at me... slowly tearing away what remains of my resolve.

All I can do is wait for my whole world to crumble down before me. And hope that when that day comes, that I'll have the strength to make it through.