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I Am Wondering What the Point In Living Is

I don't like this. I don't really think I'm "depressed" or suicidal. I'm just tired. I don't know. I just don't like living. Waking up and doing the same things every day, I don't like it. I'm bored of it. I want it to end. But I don't want to kill myself. I wish I was never born. I wonder if anything would be different without me. I wonder if my family would have more money to go around without me needing this and that. I'm nobody special, just another person among 7 billion. It doesn't matter if I died. I don't know why I'm writing this. Bleh.

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IamMorbid

What makes you not want to live?
To be perfectly honest, it sounds like you're depressed. Or maybe just stuck in a rut of negative thinking?

ProfessorProcrastinator

I'm just tired and bored of life. Nah, I don't think I'm depressed. I'm not sad. I feel rather "apathetic" a lot of the time, if you like. Like, an "I don't care" attitude. I'm not sure how to describe it.

IamMorbid

Apathy can be a part of depression, but you know yourself best. =)
I think I understand what you mean.
Does your apathy reach the point to where you don't care if you're dead or alive?

ProfessorProcrastinator

I guess so. I also have a problem with maladaptive daydreaming, which might have something to do with it.

IamMorbid

It might. I hope your maladaptive daydreaming isn't traumatic to you or anything. =/

ProfessorProcrastinator

Not really "traumatic", but HELL, it gets in the way a lot. :/ Thanks for the concern. ^^

IamMorbid

I'm sorry.
No problem!
Well I hope these apathetic feelings go away for you.

ProfessorProcrastinator

Thank you. ^^