I Learned to Let Go

I was trying to let go of the past.. and at some point, the past let go of me.
In this new found freedom,
as i look back
i see only facts and things that happened,
drained of feelings and emotions,
of hurt and heartache..
Didn't know when it stopped hurting,
didn't know when the past let go of me,
don't know what i'm supposed to do now.
I miss the misery and guilt,
the sadness and emptiness..
I didn't want to let go of feeling miserable and the guilt and sadness,
but the past let go of me,
and now i don't know how i'm supposed to feel..

Those memories have faded so much
i barely remember anything,
like a story i read in some book,
or something that happened lifetimes ago,
the past let go of me
even when i wanted to keep holding on..
i want those memories to shatter me like they used to,
now all those memories do is nothing..

And i drift along like a leaf in the wind,
no idea where i would end up.