Just reflecting on how my whole attitude toward SW really changed when I was ditched by a certain friend I made here
Even though it had happened to me many times before, that time was different. They were probably the most valuable connection I made here. I鈥檓 still not sure what exactly went wrong, but it ended in disaster. It was the worst I鈥檝e ever been hurt here and was enough for me to close my account for the very first time.
But after that time, nothing surprised me here anymore. I would get screwed over several more times by close friends, but even if it might have upset me, it didn鈥檛 leave me in nearly as much dismay as it did when that friend dumped me.
I believe that was around the time when I started becoming much more cynical about this site. Before, I would message newcomers on how this is such a great, welcoming community while warning then to just watch out for the creeps. Now I just laugh at the very thought and cringe that I used to do that crap.
I was a lot nicer before then too and would have patience even when people would get nasty to me. Now I have next to no patience for any BS and don鈥檛 think twice about tearing users to shreds when they get cross with me.
That person, this valued connection I lost somehow, they really had an impact on me. So much, I was never the same on here after that. To this day, I regret what happened and wish things could have been differently. But part of me is glad things did go the way they did, as I feel much wiser and mentally stronger for it.
I鈥檒l never forget this person though. I learned the hard way that I couldn鈥檛 forget them if I tried. If I did something that ruined our relationship, I only wish I could apologize to them for it. But if it was just them who screwed me for whatever reason, there are no hard feelings. I鈥檓 just happy to have befriended them while it lasted and wish there could have been more.
Don鈥檛 ask who they are. It doesn鈥檛 even matter now because they鈥檙e gone and have been for a long time. Probably won鈥檛 ever come back.
I just hope they have a nice life and maybe found a better community than this place and a better friend than me.
But after that time, nothing surprised me here anymore. I would get screwed over several more times by close friends, but even if it might have upset me, it didn鈥檛 leave me in nearly as much dismay as it did when that friend dumped me.
I believe that was around the time when I started becoming much more cynical about this site. Before, I would message newcomers on how this is such a great, welcoming community while warning then to just watch out for the creeps. Now I just laugh at the very thought and cringe that I used to do that crap.
I was a lot nicer before then too and would have patience even when people would get nasty to me. Now I have next to no patience for any BS and don鈥檛 think twice about tearing users to shreds when they get cross with me.
That person, this valued connection I lost somehow, they really had an impact on me. So much, I was never the same on here after that. To this day, I regret what happened and wish things could have been differently. But part of me is glad things did go the way they did, as I feel much wiser and mentally stronger for it.
I鈥檒l never forget this person though. I learned the hard way that I couldn鈥檛 forget them if I tried. If I did something that ruined our relationship, I only wish I could apologize to them for it. But if it was just them who screwed me for whatever reason, there are no hard feelings. I鈥檓 just happy to have befriended them while it lasted and wish there could have been more.
Don鈥檛 ask who they are. It doesn鈥檛 even matter now because they鈥檙e gone and have been for a long time. Probably won鈥檛 ever come back.
I just hope they have a nice life and maybe found a better community than this place and a better friend than me.
