I've Been Thinking

I've been blessed with so much and I'm so greatful for all I have been given. I know that I have been privileged and although not perfect, my life has been fairly easy. Yet, my soul yearns for so much more. Not in things or possessions, but in the very things money can never buy.
Something is missing, has been missing and that very thing, my heart bleeds and begs for. Always out of my reach but close enough to taste. Never allowed to grasp it or claim it for my own. I try to ignore it, forget it, replace it with other things. But it will not be dismissed.
I'm at a crossroad and my future teeters on the decision I've been asked to make: Live the rest of my life in a relationship that lacks in love or move forward in a quest to finally find love. So much to process, knowing that if I choose the latter, I could be alone the rest of my life. Nothing is guaranteed.

nojudging · 61-69, M

I agree with snofan, go with your heart. Maintaining the status quo will bring you exactly what you have now. It will be hard if you dare but doing so will bring you an adventure. Sometimes good, sometimes scary. To some extent though you will be able to control the degrees. Other times you may feel it's out of control. Regardless of the good & bad hopefull you will be able to look upon it as a an adventure or a journey of discovery. It's up to you to decide what you want out of life AND ACT ON IT. All the best, I'll cross my fingers for you. 🙂

1961dave · 61-69, M

Being alone leaves the possibility of meeting the right person and having a great future. If you stick with a person that doesn't make you happy it's only gonna get worse. Bad relationships only keep erroding away!

WanderingEarth · 46-50, M

As someone who has always shed any serious relationship for fear that I would end up drowning in a sea of contempt, chained to the anchor of responsibility for others, I can tell you that if you choose an unknown future, it will be what you shape it into. Being alone can at times be lonely, but the wings of personal freedom can carry the weight of regret. Listen to your heart, and have belief that your future is yours to shape. Whatever you decide to do, fill your life with positive, healthy thoughts, actions, and people. Your world is a reflection of what you put into the world.