I Am Scared

Its embarrassing but I had always thought to myself, how can someone connect and fall for someone online? It seemed impossible. Yet, the last 16 months I've been speaking to one guy and nobody else. I feel a connection unlike any other, yet we still haven't met and he's too insecure and suffers with bad anxiety...it's very hard, I've been trying to persuade him since November last year to meet me and even figured out and arranged the best routes and places in which to meet one another... I'm constantly scared and anxious, I've fallen deep ...online, I'm someone that gets bored of people quickly, I have a weird personality and dry sense of humour, yet the guy I'm talking to I still speak to everyday about fun stuff. I have only been in one relationship which ended up being the worst year of my life. I just want to meet this guy I'm talking to so bad, I'm scared that maybe he just doesn't feel the same despite telling me he does everyday... Yet he still doesn't seem to be meeting me for a date etc, my head's completely baffled :(