I Am Scared

For The Last Time... Something is wrong with her today. I watched as the monster told her to stop being so negative and to get over it. That was all it took to push her over the edge. She has had it. I can tell. She is always crying. That is something that she learned how to hide very well, and now she is crying all of the time. Only she knows how much she is really falling apart under that smile. She is tired of screaming and crying. All she does not is stays silent. Trapped in a world surrounded by thorns. She can't take anymore. She is tired of people leaving her when things get too hard. Tired of being alone all time. She can't sit still to save her life. She is tired of wanting to have people help her and have them promise her that they would help her and always be there for her, only to have her be the one left dying in the end. She has had enough. She is done trying. She has just decided to let life do whatever it wants to her because nothing she does is good enough for anyone. She quits. She has accepted that she is a failure and a lost cause, and no longer important. Life can do what it wants to her because if she didn't care before she really doesn't care now. She's not angry she's just frustrated. Depressed people don't like being alone and judged and told to snap out of it. For the last time, she has had enough.