Sweetie...it was meant to teach you a valuable lesson. You dodged the perverbial bullet in life. Imagine where you would be now.

If I may give some advice...your past is exactly that. One can NEVER go back. It would be not what you expected because everything moves on.

The past is a reference, to learn from. Some of us, including me, have tried to continue living that past in feelings, pain, fear, etc. Let it go!

The future is before you. The past provided the necessary tools to create it. Go out, forget the past, and make your future. You only have so long to do so and “what if’s” are f****d up. Today is the first day of your future. 🤗

It's hard when you still miss someone, I would never contact an ex, I'm not findable by any of them because i don't see the point

Now you’re totally free from self torture, The “craziness” is over, and finally move on forever. Reality has its own way of teaching us a lesson, it may come sooner or later.

Your experience would have to be "How to avoid toxic people?"

Sometimes there's no clear message that an experience is able to give us... sometimes it can take many, many years before we have fully processed it...sometimes that never happens... Perhaps all you can do is know that he was, an assole