I Feel Like My Husband Doesn't Love Me

So, the guy I have complaining about all these years finally did it! I finally gave up and told him it was over. He tried making me feel guilty, but I just let him go on. So when that didn't work, he brought up the tears. Not working this time sucker! 2 Days ago I was in soooo much pain that I could not move my back. I was paralyzed at the hip. I needed emergency help. I need an ambulance! As the tears came down my face from the excruciating pain, he yelled at me and told me to suck it up and get in the car! Mind you, I have a high pain tolerance, so if I am crying from the pain, it is not good! So I yelled back to just call the ambulance! He said,"but it's not an emergency, let me look up the non emergency number." So 10 min. of pain went by while he looked on google for the non emergency number only to find out it's 911. The ambulance finally arrived, and I couldn't even sit on the stretcher without screaming! The pain was worse than labor pains! In the hospital the medication they gave wasn't working. They told me I need to go see a Neurosurgeon, so they sent me home with more meds. When my pain was finally at a controlled level I made it official. I wasn't going to take this anymore. He pretended to forget what he had done to me. He told that he took care of me, but that was not true! He let me suffer in pain, for his gratification! I should not have waited for him to decide whether I was worth call 911 or not. I pray that God gives me strength and doesn't let me fall back into this toxic relationship. I pray that I can rebuild myself, back to who I really am and not this fearful person.