I used to be a doormat for my ex 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

I was in a [i]very[/i] dark place when we met, and I honestly didn't value my life or myself at all. So when he started showing interest in me, I sort of just switched to autopilot and allowed him to control me.

I just didn't care what happened to me. And believe me he took full advantage of that. He controlled me completely. Physically, mentally, emotionally, financially. He had access to my journal, my computer, phone, Skype, etc. He monitored my conversations, my emails, my diet. He instructed me on how to speak, behave, and think. I agreed to everything he demanded. He had other women too. I didn't mind. I couldn't blame him. We women all knew about each other and I was acquaintances with one of them. It became a sort of sisterly relationship between me and her.

I would have given my entire life to him because I just don't have a lot of options when it comes to relationships. But he began trying to groom a minor (17), and that was a dealbreaker for me. So I ended it.