I Have No Confidence

My girlfriend in her attempt to get me to do something that might boost my confidence:

"Want to wash the car in our bikinis today, give the guys something to look at? 😏"

But if I did that with her, they would only be ogling her. If they were paying any attention to me, it would probably be with them wondering "What's this frickin' albino broad doing in a swimsuit out in the hot Sun?!" My appearance is too pale, sickly and frail-looking thanks to my poor health (and my treatments) to be showing a whole lot of skin anymore. I can't even feel good about wearing crop tops or shorts! What confidence I ever had in my looks is just totally gone. 😞