I'm Lonely

Having no one in my life has never been a problem. I have friends, but none close. Been in relationships and got out of them cause I was bored or just...done. Lately however, I find myself seeking connections more and more. Trying to find someone to deal with my special kind of crazy. It's a lofty goal, admittedly, but they say there's someone for everyone.

The more I try though and the more I fail...the more I fall into the storm in my head. The one that screams at me for being so imperfect and defective. It's a fuel to a fire that will consume me. Should I stop? Should I give up the pursuit of happiness and the feeling of being loved?

I'm afraid I'll with never find it or I will and then just get bored of it. Leave it again to placate the screaming in my mind.

I need to sleep.
I need to stop drinking.

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Indulge · 36-40, F

When people seek love or some companionship, they themselves have to start with their own self we have to be comfortable in our skin before we seek others to fill the void in our lives....Have you thought about why you get bored with people to easily? do you deliberately seek out people that you know will not last? Do you you have an issue with commitment or getting too close to people?If you can answer those questions for yourself, then you can see or know what partner to choose in the future. Don't look for it just let it happen naturally,and it will find you..and try to limit your drinking its not good for you and would not be a good start to a possible relationship. wishing you luck in your search.

silkandlace · 46-50, M

I hear you

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