I Want to Get Married

How can the thought of getting married be such a driving goal in my life and terrify me so much at the same time. I want to find someone and get married but I see so many people dive into it so quickly and so many divorces. Couples that were so loving toward each other fall apart and have such extreme hatred for each other. Dads that don't get to see their kids but every other week.

I want to get married very much, having someone I can support, someone who supports me. Someone there for you to help you through the trying times. I know things aren't always going to be perfect but if I find someone that I want to get married to. I hope they put as much effort into it as I do and I hope it lasts.

I want a family, I don't want to be a child support dad. I want to be there 100% for my wife and kids. I never want to have to refer to someone as my ex-wife.