Synchronicity at it's best going on at this moment.
As the colder weather gets here, the more restless I become. Wishing I was near friends to help pass the season..yup...not some time or a day but a season...lol.. 😲
I pretty much stay busy and very happy as I live outside every waking moment during the warmer seasons. I love gardening, hiking and just being quietly outside under a shade tree, reading.
My husband and I were talking about my friends coming in next week. They are making this trip to see the colors of the trees and help me to get my fill of … talking. 😎 I told him how I was feeling lonely and wish I could make friends here. He told me, you make friends easier than most folks do. I replied, friends and acquaintances are two totally different things. He then said something that stopped me dead in my tracks. He told me... I have always dreamed of being tucked-away in the mountains and woods. Because I am such a private soul. I am a loner by nature. I am not a social butterfly. "Being bored is my problem, not loneliness ..not making friends!"
Sooo… I have been pondering on this... Yup... I have a hard time making friends because of my own doings and how I wish to be, or it's how I am... 80 percent of the time... Alone.
So, a light came on.. Thank the Heavens! I must find something to keep my mind and hands busy this winter. I really do.. do fine being alone, without friends, or company everyday. So this feeling of loneliness disappeared. My perspective, attitude and emotions changed instantly.
I am not saying I don't need friends, we all need to interact. That is what this site is for, for me.
I do really enjoy, cherish my solitude. It's good for MY soul.
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I read this post once. Then reread it because I realized that I was staring into a mirror.
This time of the year brings out sadness because I have to deal with the fact that I will be stuck indoors a good portion of the time. I miss the solitude of nature and my chances to meditate and clear my mind. There are too many distractions being cooped up in the house to properly cleanse myself mentally.
And I do have acquaintances that many people would consider friends as they've been there in time of need. But there is no real connection as our interests are so different. Of course, my lifestyle is not for everyone either so it is better to live in some solitude.
This winter will bring on some changes I hope. Like you I need things to occupy myself. And hope that by spring a metamorphosis will take place.
@SageWanderer i would genuinely love to be somewhere secluded out in the country somewhere, even if i was just with one other person allowed to be free and who i want to be
