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I'm Hurting

I am asking myself.. If the only reason you're alive is because when you think of leaving, you feel guilty and hate yourself for thinking that way.. Is it really worth living?

Apparently the medication and therapy have been helping.. Because normally I would have been out for the rest of the day because of that thought.. but I know I have problems.. and I know it's impossible to deal with.. so the best I can do is hold on and keep hoping it will get better :) Keep living for the little things.. One day I know I will find something that inspires me to live a real life.

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ihavenolife2

You said "If the only reason you're alive is because when you think of leaving, you feel guilty and hate yourself for thinking that way.. Is it really worth living?"

Eh lol sometimes, whether it's to make myself feel better or something, I have these "evil" thoughts? Eh there are many different reasons why people want to leave this world. You reminded me of something I previously thought of in a particular case.

You see, if a person tells me that they want to leave this world simply because they're hated by everyone else and they think they're better off gone, if I were them, and my thoughts have gotten to this point, I'd probably like to think, I live for myself, and not anyone else. I would have probably become a selfish person and thought, I rather try to live "my" life to its fullest even if it may inconvenience others. It's my life and it'd be boring if everything else just ended just like that. Dying wouldn't leave me any room for change. Since life is unpredictable anyways, might as well live to see how things go. I mean there are so many places I haven't traveled to and so many foods I haven't tasted lol.

Eh lol your post just reminded of that past thought of mind. That's all. ^^

ihavenolife2

e.e I did it again.. crap.. typed too much. Sorry for the eyesore. D:

connieawaller

At least you're still fighting and finding the good things in love. I'm proud of you!

Holdontothefire · 26-30, M

Well thank you! I am certainly trying xD

connieawaller

Finding the good things in life** sorry haha but if you need to talk to someone, I know how that feels so I'll gladly try and help

Holdontothefire · 26-30, M

Haha yeah I got it xD Thanks again :) I'll keep that offer in mind! The same to you! You can always talk to me if you just need someone to listen :)

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