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I'm Hurting

Yesterday, for the first time, my brother spoke to the guy I've been having an online relationship with. My brother asked me to leave the room, after which he asked him about our potential future. He said that it seemed unlikely as we live very far away but we'll always be friends.
I agree with what he said, we are very good friends and personally, I think it's important to see and meet the person you want a future with just to be able to make it work. Everything he said makes sense, and I agree with it. He didn't say there was no chance, just little chance. But my heart still hurts? And I still feel sad?
In a way, I can't expect this to just happen without me feeling anything at all. I am an extremely sensitive person. But at the same time, I knew it. Why did it hurt so much? I've been through heartbreak in the past and it isn't his fault I'm feeling like this, it's mine. But to be fair, I am taking it better than I have in the past. I could even say it gets more manageable with time, but yesterday, it was killing me inside.
It's weird because after he said that to him, he even told me what he said (because I asked) and then he proceeded in talking like normal, with giggles and hearts and everything. We both aren't really big fans of commitment. And on top of that we live so far away, nothing was going to be for certain anyway. Even then, it hurts so much. I couldn't help but wonder, is it that I'm just not good enough? That sounds a bit weird but that was all I could think about. It's taken me some time to trust and open up to someone again. I was just glad that someone actually liked me, for me and didn't wanna hurt me. That probably sounds really lame, but it's true.
I've always been really big on 'hope'. I never give up hope. Ever. But is it time to put the hope away in a situation that clearly needs to be seen from a more realistic viewpoint?
Thank you in advance for any advice :)
MaleInTights
Don't give up on hope - but your online friend is being realistic. When you met that dream guy in RL, go after him. Of course not forgetting that you do have an online :"best bud." But online friendships are nice and often good thy are no substitute for RL activities.

Sounds like you have a caring bro, BTW. Looking out for sis's feelings.
Yeah you're right :) I'm kinda over it now. I'm going with the flow, not really getting my hopes up but not really losing hope either. Whatever happens happens right? :) Thanks lol and you're right! It's important to do stuff in RL too xD :) My brother is horrible most of the time but he does have his moments I guess... Thanks again :)
MaleInTights
Your welcome - See brother CAN be helpful sometimes. After all that's what family does for family (thought he might have had other motives at first) - they watch out for each other.
YVW
I think he may have xD but I help him out like that too. It's nice to know that we've still got each other's backs no matter how much hate brews between us :D
1alwaysdreaming
Sorry to hear that. Can't really give advice, as it's not really helpful (See my story on active listening)
But I hope you find what works for you and your former online partner.
Thank you :') you're so lovely! Thank you so much c:
1alwaysdreaming
^.^ Not really, but thanks
ShayLovesAmime
Hey, i get that. The whole 'hes not close enough thing' but if he - i dont know- loves u or somethin then eventually fate'll work itself out. : )
Yeah, I guess. I'm gonna talk to him about where we stand now and how to move forward from this. Thank you :)
thewriterwithpower
Awwww I could help if you want :c
thewriterwithpower
Message me and we can talk c:
Thank you but it's fine! Everything has sort of gotten better now anyway :)
thewriterwithpower
Good to hear!
xcaitlin12
Are you and this person still friends ?
Yeah. We're still friends
xcaitlin12
I'm glad all is well :)
Thanks lol :)
BenedictJones
I've read this and will keep you in my prayers..
Lol! Don't bother. It's a lost case, it seems.
BenedictJones
I was about to say our god can seam thru lost causes. But I am not religious. What am I even saying SMH
LOL! It's cool :)
david701
never give up hope. ask GOD for help.
That's a really good idea, thank you
Pseudo69isback
hope it all gets well!!!!

 
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