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I Am Self Destructive

Im in this mood maybe it’s because of where I am currently living and how people are here.
But when no body likes you because of things you can’t change, you want to like you. It’s the way you go about liking yourself that makes a difference. Mine maybe hurting me more then I want to fully come to terms with and worst part is I’m just watching. I feel like I can no long make the turn back. I feel like I need to hurt myself to be good, to be who I want to be. The thing is to many people it seems I’m fine or doing what’s healthy but in my head I feel so trapped. What started as an honest attempt to being happy turned into a life source for self destruction. I just feel super alone and I’m not sure who I’m supposed to tell. I don’t want to tell my friends or people that I actually seem to be getting along with, what if they’re disappointed or never want to talk to me... I already feel so isolated 😓
I get it. The thing people without clinical Depression will never understand, is that my Depression doesn’t care who’s issues are bigger. It magnifies whatever my problems are until I feel suffocated by them. The person with fatal cancer, that doesn’t suffer clinical depression, might actually be in emotionally better shape then me due to feeling like they can handle their problems even death. Their situation is obviously worse if measuring but my Drepession destroys me emotionally. 🖤
@JustGoneNow I write my feelings in poetry. Read some in the link above if you like. Be well. 🖤
Sagey47 · 26-30, F
@JustGoneNow I read some. I should share some without too!!! I have to get off my old phone but yeah. I like it, there’s a lot going on it sounds like.
@Sagey47 Thank you. 🖤
SW-User
You worry too much.
Sagey47 · 26-30, F
@SW-User haha I’ll try not to
SW-User
@Sagey47 I apologise about the horrific reply, I was half asleep.

I think it shows. 😂
Sagey47 · 26-30, F
LOL no you’re okay. You kind of helped honestly.@SW-User

 
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