I Am Envious

And she could lose it all in the near future for many, many reasons. And She may say and appear happy but you do not know what occurs behind their closed doors.
Bo not focus on others focus on yourself. What have you learned since your fall, what must you do to rise again, what is it you want most out of life and what steps must you take to achieve them, are the questions you should be focused on. I had a friend years ago who was envious of his best friends perfect seeming relationship. Eventually he killed himself out of self-inflicted depression. A few years later it turned out that for the sake of the kids they stayed together but had fallen out of love several years earlier but were waiting for the children to get older and more understanding before announcing a separation and pending divorce. He was envious of an illusion to the point of suicide because he believed it was real.

Ur young, and there's nothing wrong saying you are envious, you should work to change your position.