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I Am Depressed

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Another day in my life where I'm sitting alone filled with melancholy and self hate. I talked to my mom and made her cry which make me feel like an even more terrible person (she had no reason, I literally told her I didn't know what dates I would be free in the summer yet). I started talking with someone which brings me joy, but it's short lasting because I still end up hating myself and being sad when I'm alone (she keeps me distracted which is nice). But it also brings paranoia because I like her, but I always fear people don't like n back because that's how it typically is, I'm just annoying in all honesty, I can't take things seriously because the only emotion I can show is fake happiness. I put on this curtain in order to stop the world from seeing my true internal pain and despair
18-21, M
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May 2, 2017
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Strawhatluffy · 26-30, M
What makes you happy?
17smitha · 18-21, M
@Strawhatluffy: I can't tell you that answer... I've never known genuine happiness I guess. All I know are periodic distractions
Strawhatluffy · 26-30, M
@17smitha: yiu need to take some time to figure it out then
LadyGrace · F
Please don't beat yourself up. You honestly don't have to be a certain way. Just love yourself enough to allow yourself to be genuinely you. You don't have to try. Just do what makes you comfortable and happy. When you're happy, others will see that and be happy [b]for[/b] you. If they cannot accept you for who you are, you don't need them. It's not about finding yourself. There's no mistakes in being who you want to be. Sure, you'll [b]make[/b] mistakes, but who you are is no mistake. You'll learn and grow along the way. That's the way we learn, from our mistakes. That doesn't mean you're a failure. It just means there's a better way to do things. You can create the life you want to live. If you can dream it, you can do it. Just stay positive.
LadyGrace · F
@17smitha: I can sure understand that. Don't feel out of place. I think we've all been there. Perhaps some of my writings will help. Seek and you shall find, says God. He was right. I did just that, but that's up to you.
17smitha · 18-21, M
@GraceFromEP: I've seeked but have been unsuccessful so far, I pray nightly, go to church when I can, do everything I can by the books but still can't find happiness! All I find in the end of each day is dispair and hate
LadyGrace · F
I did all that, too, and nothing happened until I made a 100% commitment, then things changed. God wants all your heart, not just part. @17smitha:
tindrummer · M
ask your Dr about taking an anti-depressant - you may have a chemical imbalance
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saintsong · 36-40, F
as a Christian, put to death your despair and self hatread, and live in love and by faith for God. read the word study it until it's all in your head, act on your faith, it takes effort to love God, make the effort, again and again, until you really do feel love instead of hate.

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