I Know That Part Of Me Wants To Change
Part of me wants to try to eat better, shed some weight but I seriously don't know how. I grew up in a household where frozen processed food was the way of life. We would seriously get in the car and drop $300+ at places like Sams Club on chicken nuggets, fries, frozen pizza and whatever processed easy stuff we could find. It wasn't just my parents who were buying all the junk food it was other family members too. Both grandmas on both sides of the family were all about stuffing you to death. Oh don't be shy have some more food. My grandma on my mom's side would babysit us a lot when my parents were at work and she was always taking us to McDonalds or Burger King.
My mom would buy a 12 pack of coke and between my little brother and I we could kill that off in a day easy. She tried to establish rules like only 1 can a day or no soda before a certain time of day. That failed we threw tantrums over it and she gave in.
My dad was especially bad. He loved those white chocolate covered oreos and would take all the plastic off the box so it was a plain white box. He hid the box on top of the fridge in the way back so nobody knew what it was. There was the time he got a box of regular oreos and ate an entire row in one setting. He got mad over it and blamed my brother for eating them all. My dad has always been a large guy. He's always been 6'4 200+lbs. It got to the point where he got really upset because he weighed over 300lbs and was up to a 48 in the waist and was having bad knee problems. He's fine now though. He got knee surgery and started hitting the gym and lost a bunch of weight already.
I guess my point is I don't want to be my dad. I don't want to hide oreos and blame other people for eating them all or be over 300lbs someday. I just have no damn idea what eating healthy is or how to even cook healthy. You know me I've already established the fact several times that I am a horrendous cook. I just don't understand. It's seriously not uncommon for me to not eat vegetables for weeks. To me healthy eating is salads and I don't know much else.
My mom would buy a 12 pack of coke and between my little brother and I we could kill that off in a day easy. She tried to establish rules like only 1 can a day or no soda before a certain time of day. That failed we threw tantrums over it and she gave in.
My dad was especially bad. He loved those white chocolate covered oreos and would take all the plastic off the box so it was a plain white box. He hid the box on top of the fridge in the way back so nobody knew what it was. There was the time he got a box of regular oreos and ate an entire row in one setting. He got mad over it and blamed my brother for eating them all. My dad has always been a large guy. He's always been 6'4 200+lbs. It got to the point where he got really upset because he weighed over 300lbs and was up to a 48 in the waist and was having bad knee problems. He's fine now though. He got knee surgery and started hitting the gym and lost a bunch of weight already.
I guess my point is I don't want to be my dad. I don't want to hide oreos and blame other people for eating them all or be over 300lbs someday. I just have no damn idea what eating healthy is or how to even cook healthy. You know me I've already established the fact several times that I am a horrendous cook. I just don't understand. It's seriously not uncommon for me to not eat vegetables for weeks. To me healthy eating is salads and I don't know much else.
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