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This is really accurate but I never thought I'd experience all this.



SW-User
That would explain so much about myself, since it seems like my mother is a (bit of a) narcissist. She always plays the victim and hurls abuse when nobody's around, blaming me and my siblings (although I'm the one who usually gets screamed at) for her being stressed, and just generally have to be an emotional/verbal punching bag should I do even one thing slightly "wrong" by her arbitrary standards. I've never felt like I fit into the world, like I don't understand it and it doesn't understand me - nor does it seem to want to. But I guess there would be other explanations for it too.

But above all else, I fear becoming like her. I know I'm broken, probably beyond any sort of repair, and I feel like I'm too self-centred (hence the interminable use of 'I').

I apologise both for the length of this comment and the fact that it's taking up space on your post when it should probably be a post in its own right. In fact I will make it a post.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@SW-User I'm sorry you have to deal with all of this. I mean I know how it hurts now that I met one.

I don't think you'd be like her and had she been someone else I would have suggested you to cut if off with that person but I don't know what can be said in this situation. I'm really sorry for that. I appreciate your comment and you need not mind commenting on my post in any way.
assemblingaknob · 26-30, F
[quote] This is really accurate but I never thought I'd experience all this. [/quote]

When it's the people you look up to and trust the most, it's easy to stay in denial. It's natural to make excuses for our loved ones. Acknowledging that there is a problem that needs to be addressed is one step closer to escaping such a situation!
revenant · F
@Beatbox34 you could not help it. When we are born , us little kids absorb it all and parents are like gods to show us what is truth and how to conduct ourselves and most of it they are supposed to KNOW what is good but you have been denied the goodness in yourself.
SatanBurger · 36-40, F
@Beatbox34 If you look at it this way, you have a unique point of view now and if you hadn't have met this person, you may have fallen for a worse one in the future. I think things like that teach you to stay strong.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@SatanBurger I agree.

It took me some time to realize that but the way she was selfish spoke volumes about her.
All of this is true...

...the damage is appalling, total, comprehensive, and complete on every level possible..and they know it!

...and yet they have no conscience, no empathy, and not so much as a shred of remorse for what they've done..

...God curse them and cast them into the eternal fire!!!
That last one sounds more like a player.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Spoiledbrat I don't know if all of them are players but the one I met indeed was one. Every word in this post fits her description.
I’m sorry to hear. @Beatbox34
revenant · F
It is very true.

 
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