But what do really know of the entity we call God? What does any person really know about the all powerful creator of all things? Can the finite human mind even begin to actually comprehend such an entity much more what's in its mind, it's consciousness? How not surprisingly arrogant that r puny humans think we're so highly intelligent that we can know the mind and intentions of such a i fathomable entity to pass judgement on it. Sure there's the teachings of Jesus but don't you think he broke things way down to our level for us to be able to effectively digest?
I would venture to say that the universal order of things and the ultimate plan whatever it is, is bigger than any one of us or pour personal problems. And that I believe that no matter how bad it might seem, belief in it all coming together for a higher purpose is worth hanging in there and fighting through for. My experience is that if you make up your mind to survive your trials and put effort into that, somehow you karate get through and can look back and see that you must've had help that you didn't realize was there at the time. That's why you have faith that that great entity that we call God, just might care after all. Maybe not in ways that you are able to understand. Again, that's where your faith and belief comes in. You're just discovering that it's hard. Yup. You're right. It is. And not just for you.
You're fine.