I Am Conflicted

I have to quit my job today. My boyfriends father has a disease that's destroyed his immune system and I can't risk bringing anything home from work and infecting him. I would not be able to live with myself if I got him sick

But I'm scared of not working. I have a savings I can live on for some time. I care about my boss and coworkers so much, and I hate to leave them without me, even temporarily, as I'm one of the strongest employees in the store. But the guilt I feel for leaving the house every day is unbearable

I have to keep reminding myself that, while I'm an essential worker, my paycheck certainly doesn't say so. I'm working in the midst of a pandemic in a part of Arizona with the most confirmed cases of corona with no bonus pay, only free meals. Customers in this time are particularly abusive to employees. And I could literally kill my boyfriends father if I keep working

I'm getting stressed about what's to come