I Have Been Thinking
Replying to question just now about "friends with benefits" I feel compelled to say whats on my mind.
So if a person knows exactly what they want without commitment how does things turn out exactly the opposite? My confession is I have come to a point where I am considering having a friend with benefits, its not because I am a woman that does not respect myself or my body enough to share this intimacy with someone that loves me but it's because I can't love again. My mind is on a shut down mode to love or affection, the only love I can spare is that which I have in abundance for my kids and close family. I know without a doubt in my mind that I don't need love nor can I love again.
The only reason I have never acted on the way I feel because I know if feelings eventually develope, its not going to be me. I won't want to hurt anyone. Also how does one approach such a sensitive subject with the other person?
So if a person knows exactly what they want without commitment how does things turn out exactly the opposite? My confession is I have come to a point where I am considering having a friend with benefits, its not because I am a woman that does not respect myself or my body enough to share this intimacy with someone that loves me but it's because I can't love again. My mind is on a shut down mode to love or affection, the only love I can spare is that which I have in abundance for my kids and close family. I know without a doubt in my mind that I don't need love nor can I love again.
The only reason I have never acted on the way I feel because I know if feelings eventually develope, its not going to be me. I won't want to hurt anyone. Also how does one approach such a sensitive subject with the other person?