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I Have Been In An Abusive Relationship

In Pieces (written 7/19/16 2:53am)

I gotta stop staying up this late. When I do, my mind goes to all sorts of places. Places, that I'd rather leave undiscovered. I've been getting down on myself a lot lately. I've been feeling like I'm not good enough, questioning my life path, and my worth. I struggle to find my value.

I know it's there. I can reel off many different concepts and viewpoints that illustrate how I have value in some way, but I just don't FEEL it.

I feel like I lost a part of myself in my last relationship.

I lost my voice.

I'm slowly piecing myself back together now. It feels as if many fragments of myself have been left behind, and now I'm putting together what is left. The end result looks nothing like the original, but as I take a step back... hopefully one day, I'll be able to appreciate the new mosaic that I've become.
KnightRanger56-60, M
Are you familiar with the Japanese art of Kintsugi, or Kintsukuroi? It is the art of repairing broken pottery utilizing gold, thus honouring the damage and subsequent repair as increasing, rather than decreasing, the value of the original. Your sharing your story made me think of that! 馃槉

wtfgirl00131-35, F
@KnightRanger Omg, that's a beautiful parallel!
KnightRanger56-60, M
I am glad you think so! 馃挅 It just struck me, as I read your post...
lovingdead31-35, M
Deep, I relate much to trying to piece something together from memory, feeling the wind blow through all the gaps and empty spaces
wtfgirl00131-35, F
@lovingdead I love hearing from people with similar experiences. Thank you!
LG197646-50, F
This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you strength and healing xo
wtfgirl00131-35, F
@LG1976 I appreciate that so much. Thank you!
DanielChristensen46-50, M
My last heartbreak was devastating. I never opened myself again.
wtfgirl00131-35, F
@DanielChristensen Yes, I don't blame you at all. It's hard. And easy to question is the risk even worth it...
MartinTheFirst22-25, M
Why do you repost old posts?
wtfgirl00131-35, F
@MartinTheFirst I used to write on a different site, but that site is closing down, so I just wanted to have all of my entries in one place. I'm also enjoying the opportunity to look back as I go through these and revisit my old thoughts.
MartinTheFirst22-25, M
@wtfgirl001 let me guess

EP?
wtfgirl00131-35, F

 
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