I Battle Self-hatred, Anxiety, And Depression

I've been there... I know this sounds totally stupid, but a friend of mine taught me this trick when I was really down. First, take a deep 3 second Inhale followed by a deep four second powerful exhale. If you do that a few times, it usually will lower your blood pressure a smidge. Of course my other favorite (which has worked for me) is go punch the shit out of a pillow. Sounds stupid, but it helped me. Of course, there are plenty of us hear to listen if you need to talk. Hang in there :)

Are you taking an anti-depressant? I'm bi-polar and take Lamictal and it's kept me on an even keel for years. Nothing wrong with getting help. Do it!

Sorry to read that and this will sound very clichéd, but please know that you are not alone. Please reach out to someone, whether it's a parent, a sibling, a friend or even someone from a "Depression Support" group. I know that's probably the last thing you want to do right now, but there's an excellent chance that it will help you a lot.

Don't let those thoughts win

I tried getting help. All I got was "grow up" and "I'll pray for you".

So sorry. I hope you can think of happy things. Stay healthy, get some good rest.