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Do you have a friend who drains you of energy?

Like I got this girl friend who is pre transition, she is buried deep to protect herself. And stuck in the weird place where "man mode" is her default. I listen and try to help her find herself or whatevs.
And it's lonely there 2, coz most peeps u know, aren't talking to the real you😭😭.

But this creates problems, she kinda gets envious coz Im livin her dream and I get dragged back to feels I dont wanna remember. Also english isn't her first language, so that makes it hard for me too, she can't find the phrasing or words. And I rite lik this 2 *laughs*, probs doesn't help.

Anyways the buried girl🥰 seems super nice so I keep at it❤.

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Iwillwait · M

Man mode? What is that? What's the Dream you're living out?

Alison · 18-21, F

@Iwillwait I'm transgender. We all playacted a dude once, kinda becomes a bad habit🤷‍♀️.

Iwillwait · M

@Alison the dream is?

Alison · 18-21, F

@Iwillwait I'm out livin as myself. Said screw the h8rs I'm doin me.

Iwillwait · M

@Alison what does that look like for you in contrast to her?

Alison · 18-21, F

@Iwillwait On HRT, livin as myself.

Iwillwait · M

@Alison please forgive my ignorance, HRT? What is that?

Alison · 18-21, F

@Iwillwait Hormone Replacement Therapy.

I have female levels of hormones now. So I'm growing things (got As ATM🙂), got girl skin, much softer hair, a better deposition and a completely altered sexuality.

It's much better for me, I'm happy mostly now🥰🥰🙂.

Iwillwait · M

@Alison oh, I understand. Sounds expensive. I wish you all the best in your journey.

Alison · 18-21, F

@Iwillwait Thxs🥰.

Iwillwait · M

@Alison you mentioned better disposition, how so?

Alison · 18-21, F

@Iwillwait Well basically less competitive, more patient, not as angry and life is just good mostly. I do cry a lot tho. All this made me more comfortable and I just fit into myself now, if that makes sense?

It seems tho that a dude on the meds I take looks for the nearest rope, which is sorta interesting too.

Iwillwait · M

@Alison So, you're a born woman taking meds / or estrogen? Or a born Male taking HRT?

Alison · 18-21, F

@Iwillwait AMAB. But the lifestyle totes wrong for me.
Use Google, I'm sticking with TG language here, otherwise I gonna get dysphoria and that I walk away from.

Iwillwait · M

@Alison oh, ok. Thank you for taking the time to answer me.