I Feel Broken Inside
after all this time i cant stop thinking about u ... 2 years .. every day , every morning and every night .. even between the houres , minutes and secondes .. how hard i try, i couldn't get you out of my mind; how could i? ..yoou're the one .. but you're gone and i have to gest used of ur absens but HOW? HOWW THE HELL DOES PPL GET OVER EACH OTHER ?
i've tryed every thing : i met new poeple i've tryed to get into relationship but ifind my self talking about you where yo used to take me how you treat me , i can't stop comparing evrything and i shouldnt do that but i did it anyway ;
i've even tryed to make out with random people , and every time u send me a snapchat of you ,i cant getit off my head it keeps playing on and on and on , and every time i see a girl next to you in your stories , i found my self waking up in a new bed with new guy every couples of weeks , the worst part of it the guilt taht i feel when i walk off and put my clothes on the walk of shame idont even like that guy , why would i do that and the only thing that killes me is i keepsaying that i saw you ^partying hard last night with a new girl i have to be with someone new too , i should be happy too i deserve itt.
i wonder some time would you ever feel the same ? would u ever fall for someone so deeply that you only sees him even if u didn't meet in a year ? would u ever be unable to kiss or hug someone without imaging that you're kiss'n him or hugging him?
its really hard .. i just want you out of my mind even for an hour .. i had it all ..
once but i didnt appriciate it .. i should be happy i have what makes every one happy , i even met the mister perfect : the best i could ever wish for great job , handsome ,so nice soft kind carring .. and the list still goes on...but i didnt care he wasnt you and its killing mee i should be happy by now i defintly should
i've tryed every thing : i met new poeple i've tryed to get into relationship but ifind my self talking about you where yo used to take me how you treat me , i can't stop comparing evrything and i shouldnt do that but i did it anyway ;
i've even tryed to make out with random people , and every time u send me a snapchat of you ,i cant getit off my head it keeps playing on and on and on , and every time i see a girl next to you in your stories , i found my self waking up in a new bed with new guy every couples of weeks , the worst part of it the guilt taht i feel when i walk off and put my clothes on the walk of shame idont even like that guy , why would i do that and the only thing that killes me is i keepsaying that i saw you ^partying hard last night with a new girl i have to be with someone new too , i should be happy too i deserve itt.
i wonder some time would you ever feel the same ? would u ever fall for someone so deeply that you only sees him even if u didn't meet in a year ? would u ever be unable to kiss or hug someone without imaging that you're kiss'n him or hugging him?
its really hard .. i just want you out of my mind even for an hour .. i had it all ..
once but i didnt appriciate it .. i should be happy i have what makes every one happy , i even met the mister perfect : the best i could ever wish for great job , handsome ,so nice soft kind carring .. and the list still goes on...but i didnt care he wasnt you and its killing mee i should be happy by now i defintly should
