I Have Borderline Personality Disorder
I just cried on the phone to my boyfriend who was on his way over, ended up coming down to meet him in the car and crying more and talking about a lot of things.
This all started because I met a guy (we're in an open relationship) and was thinking about meeting him for coffee. My boyfriend pointed out that this is the same cycle of events I often get into when I find a new person to fixate on or play with.
So now it's up to me telling the guy that I can't talk to him any more because I'm unstable and having to explain in more detail, which I'm not ready for. He also goes to my school, which makes me worry I'll see him on campus. I've been switching up my appearance to avoid him recognizing me.
I feel terrible for dragging my boyfriend into something like this again, because he always has to deal with these things and we have such an amazing relationship that I feel like I shouldn't get bored like I do, but I get bored no matter what I'm doing.
/sigh
This all started because I met a guy (we're in an open relationship) and was thinking about meeting him for coffee. My boyfriend pointed out that this is the same cycle of events I often get into when I find a new person to fixate on or play with.
So now it's up to me telling the guy that I can't talk to him any more because I'm unstable and having to explain in more detail, which I'm not ready for. He also goes to my school, which makes me worry I'll see him on campus. I've been switching up my appearance to avoid him recognizing me.
I feel terrible for dragging my boyfriend into something like this again, because he always has to deal with these things and we have such an amazing relationship that I feel like I shouldn't get bored like I do, but I get bored no matter what I'm doing.
/sigh
