I Wish

...I didn't have to pretend with you. Hide behind a fake smile, cheery words, canned laughter. I don't want you to know that I'm hurting, that I'm crashing, my world is turned upside down. My heart is ruined, my soul is torn, my pillow is wet with tears. You will never know that. I will never tell.
I can't breathe, my thoughts are persistent, my focus is gone, my emotions are tattered.

I am scared. I am alone and I am slowly dying. This mess I've caused myself. And no one cares. No one is around