I Give Up

I just can't win. If I show how depressed/ anxious Im really feeling I get yelled at for not wanting to get help (I do. I'm even in coucilling despite the fact that doctors/ psyciatrists/ etc have always scared the hell out of me) but if I show any sign of happiness- maybe Im having an ok day or able to put on a brave face especially for my kid- I get yelled at for faking my depression/anxiety for attention. Well excuse me for having a deep craving for death because Im broken but dont want to sit there taking self destructive action in front of my 11 year old. When will my fantasy of a zombie apocalypse begin?

Samael

Hmm, sounds like he just couldn't handle it anymore. Or something like that.

You're very welcome. I know my username is reference to a Fallen Angel but, I'm not that evil. :D I hope you'll find what you need to keep going, for your child's sake if anything. :)