How can I stop feeling jealous of people bonding with their mothers?

I never had a loving relationship with my mother. She was pretty neglectful and didn't show me love or my brothers. Well she did to my oldest Bros. She abandoned us when my was 8. My brother who is autistic is very hurt but that and he wants NOTHING to do with mom anymore. I'm not going to sugarcoat my feelings. When I see mothers and daughers bonding, it makes me sick to my stomach. I wish my friends would wait bonding with their mothers right in front of me! When they walk about fun activities they're going to do with their mothers, I actually snapped at them to shut up! I said, "Enough!!!! Ahhhh!!!" They asked why I was yelled. I bluntly said, "Because I am so sick of hearing you guys talking about your mothers and bonding with them! It's making me sick!" They called me out for being rude. My best friend said, "Well it isn't our fault your mom would out on you guys. It gives you no reason to be an ass!" My best guy friend said, "Exactly. If you don't wanna hear anymore of this, then leave! We're not making you stay." How rude. I'm not apologizing for how I was acting. They need to apologize.