Welcome back to life... I've heard that every single person who tried who kill themselves and survived somehow, actually regretted it at the very moment they "jumped"... So you were wise, maybe you'd be at the hospital all broken, in pain, paralyzed, disfigured, etc., if you had tried, who knows... Nice to know you're safe and sound... And trust me, I get it, I've been there in a similar situation more times I can count, yet never "jumped"... go figure...