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I Dissociate

Right now, I'm starting to relapse in feeling too damn much. Random painful memories keeps popping up in my brain triggering a wide range of emotions. :/ After hitting a breaking point, I'll detach and dissociate. Who I become or what I do during then is a roll of a dice. I might get psychotic, pessimistic/passive agressive, or just plain suicidal, I can't control it whatsoever. Along with the sudden changes I hear the thoughts of my alter and become them to varying degrees. :/

Sometimes there's no warning when this happens. For an example, I woke up one morning, made coffee and was pretty happy, went to go shower then [i]boom![/i] I'm in a psychotic rage for no apparent reason and became a different person during and after.

Though, this time, I feel it coming to take complete control of me. :/ So far, I've been strong enough to supress the waves of emotions but it's reaching a limit.

I hope I can fight this today. 馃檹
DanielChristensen46-50, M
I've had times I was very stressed, just today, but you take a step back and look at what's troubling you or who and see its just a trouble, not the end. You can adjust and be okay again. Believe that and it will become your reality
HasmitaM
I'm sorry to hear this but thanks for bringing this out into the open so others can realize they're not alone and others can learn.

 
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