I Am Actively Trying to Heal
I have been on a journey to heal my life. I just turned 40 not too long ago and I am actually excited about it. Lots of changes have happened in my life recently and I was not scared but I seem to be stalled and questioning "whats next" for me in my life.
I know I want more and I acknowledge that I have been blessed in my life so I find myself at a crossroads. I want more fulfillment because my career, my family life, my love life, my health, etc... has all been so dissatisfying. I worry that I don't have the resources to go after my dream and I fear that if the longer I stay stuck in my current situation, I will never get out.
I have been reading a ton of books and documentaries about healing my life, spirituality and as a novice practicing Buddhist.... I kinda know what needs to be done but I refuse to do it. I refuse to do the work. Maybe cause I'm lazy (I've always been accused of that) or maybe its because I fear if I do the work and it doesn't work something then has to be wrong with me. I don't know.... so this is my first step to doing the work.
I've read Psycho-Cybernetics, The Silva Method and the Sedona Method along with EFT and many others.... I actually have the video/audio programs for many of the programs and I've listened, read and practiced lightly but never gave it 100% of my attention. I even have several of Louise Hay's books and so I feel I will start with her "You Can Heal Your Life" book and do the exercises this time and work my way thru the rest of the course I have, actually doing the exercises and meditating and seeing if that works.
I know from everything I've read and heard, seen and experienced- change must come from inside. I have been hoping for a light bulb aha moment from a book or movie that inspires me to change, transform overnight, no work required. Inwards manifests itself outward and so here I go... inward on my journey to self-discovery, peace, love, joy, compassion and abundance.
Today, I start :)
I know I want more and I acknowledge that I have been blessed in my life so I find myself at a crossroads. I want more fulfillment because my career, my family life, my love life, my health, etc... has all been so dissatisfying. I worry that I don't have the resources to go after my dream and I fear that if the longer I stay stuck in my current situation, I will never get out.
I have been reading a ton of books and documentaries about healing my life, spirituality and as a novice practicing Buddhist.... I kinda know what needs to be done but I refuse to do it. I refuse to do the work. Maybe cause I'm lazy (I've always been accused of that) or maybe its because I fear if I do the work and it doesn't work something then has to be wrong with me. I don't know.... so this is my first step to doing the work.
I've read Psycho-Cybernetics, The Silva Method and the Sedona Method along with EFT and many others.... I actually have the video/audio programs for many of the programs and I've listened, read and practiced lightly but never gave it 100% of my attention. I even have several of Louise Hay's books and so I feel I will start with her "You Can Heal Your Life" book and do the exercises this time and work my way thru the rest of the course I have, actually doing the exercises and meditating and seeing if that works.
I know from everything I've read and heard, seen and experienced- change must come from inside. I have been hoping for a light bulb aha moment from a book or movie that inspires me to change, transform overnight, no work required. Inwards manifests itself outward and so here I go... inward on my journey to self-discovery, peace, love, joy, compassion and abundance.
Today, I start :)
