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I Am a Monster

This person I'm chatting with is pouring their heart and soul to me. Talking how they want to be the best for me, love me unconditionally, give me everything. All I can do is paint pretty words back that have no meaning or substance behind them.

I'm leading this poor soul on. Having them think that we are going to have such a bright loving future when, in reality, I feel nothing for them. I won't say that because I enjoy having someone to talk to for now. When I get bored I'll just stop answering. That's how it usually goes. Selfish and monstrous.

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Justbychance · M

[quote] Selfish and monstrous [/quote]

Not sure about your choice or words, but there's gotta be something better you can do with your time. You seem to indicate that you are at your happiest when you have attention, but in doing so it would mean you would have to know enough of the person to keep that process on-going.

I think you already know that what you are doing isn't fruitful, it doesn't make you a better person and (maybe) it could be a situation where you are craving attention in a way that is less than the considered 'Norm'. I think you would know that better yourself.

Seems you are close to being bored, so this won't go on for long. If there is a next time is, of course, up to you. But do you [i]really[/i] want to take this up as some form of entertainment? Something's badly wrong in the way you carry on in this fashion

bunnyXbunny · 36-40, M

@Justbychance I agree with you with everything as much except me doing this for attention. It's more validation.

Justbychance · M

@bunnyXbunny Validation through understanding/accepting things that you do. I think you might pick a different word for 'attention' but in whatever word you use there has to be the element of moments, written words, interpretations of words you would use in order to get the attention needed for you to go through these things as you do. Anyway ...

I can't say I would validate what it is that you do, whilst at the same time it doesn't mean that I either agree or disagree at the same time. The same rule would apply to you. Self validation doesn't set you free from yourself, when you are calling yourself a 'Selfish monster' so I can't say I know where you are coming from, or, why you think this post is 'more validation'. In real terms it's not too unlike the addict who can neither stay away from the addiction nor want to stay with it. He's stuck between a rock and a hard; that is where I see you