Always numb?
I'm so numb all the times, but my head is a mess.. I don't know how to stop this feeling of emptiness?
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Montanaman 路 M
Numb. Nothing but empty numbness...
(Her story, Her POV)
I'll never forget that time, and what you did for me. I was hurting so bad, and for so long, I just grew numb. Inside and out, to myself and to others around me. I guess I had just given up, no more emotion, no more concern, no more tears. And you were there, by my side as always. I was empty, void of any more feeling, and I said to you, "I- I just don't know if I can take anymore." And you asked me back, "Take anymore what?" And I said back blankly, "Nothing. Not feeling nothing. I mean, sometimes I wish someone would just hit me. You know, just to feel something again."
Then you just hit me hard across the face. I was dumbfounded, and I reacted venomously, with gut-wrenching rage and tears streaming down my face, "You son-of-a-bitch! Don't you ever touch me again!"
And you looked at me with a sad smile and said, "I'll always touch you."
-Kelly.
(Her story, Her POV)
I'll never forget that time, and what you did for me. I was hurting so bad, and for so long, I just grew numb. Inside and out, to myself and to others around me. I guess I had just given up, no more emotion, no more concern, no more tears. And you were there, by my side as always. I was empty, void of any more feeling, and I said to you, "I- I just don't know if I can take anymore." And you asked me back, "Take anymore what?" And I said back blankly, "Nothing. Not feeling nothing. I mean, sometimes I wish someone would just hit me. You know, just to feel something again."
Then you just hit me hard across the face. I was dumbfounded, and I reacted venomously, with gut-wrenching rage and tears streaming down my face, "You son-of-a-bitch! Don't you ever touch me again!"
And you looked at me with a sad smile and said, "I'll always touch you."
-Kelly.
CaptainCookie 路 26-30, F
@Montanaman You're a writer?
Montanaman 路 M
@CaptainCookie Yes 馃槉馃き It's my thing on SW馃槑
CaptainCookie 路 26-30, F
@Montanaman Cool.
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CaptainCookie 路 26-30, F
Ian123 路 61-69, M
I think most people feel like this at times, I know I do 馃檮 Don't think there is a cure, I just try and distract myself and it does pass. It depends how bad it is for you..take care 馃
You have to busy yourself, exercise is a good way to take your mind off of the mess.
CaptainCookie 路 26-30, F
@Pitchblue Doesn't help..
@CaptainCookie Unfortunately your brain is telling you that you are confused or feeling a certain way and no one except you can change that. This is not a medical condition and if you go down the road of heavy meds they all have side affects. I'm not talking out of my ass, I know how you feel from personal experience.
CaptainCookie 路 26-30, F
@Pitchblue Bordeline. I don't take medications..
MellyMel22 路 F
[i][c=#BF0080]Try to keep busy 馃挏 [/c][/i]
CaptainCookie 路 26-30, F
@MellyMel22 Doesn't help..
MartinTheFirst 路 22-25, M
Doesn't help?
CaptainCookie 路 26-30, F
@MartinTheFirst What?