I Love My Husband

My husband publically told everyone at the Christmas party that he would only go on vacation if he divorced his wife. At home he is always threatening divorce if I spend money or if I don't clean up the house. My emotions are taxed and I'm scared and feel defeated.....And it's all because of my schizoaffective disorder, which is why I lay in bed all day for the last 20 years. I don't blame him but at the same time It would ruin me forever if we did get divorced because nobody would ever want me, sure I could catch feels with people but once they realize that I live in bed they'll run.. .