I Don't Have Any Friends

No what actually occurs when I shift into nonlinear time is a distortion field of a spherical shape manifests around me that is 10 foot radius and anyone else caught within that radius around me before the field manifests will also experience everything that I see occur like time reversal/skip/slip/leap/missing time or any other temporal anomaly. It's more like clearing your mind and not letting any random thoughts interfere with the NOW moment of understanding the phenomenon by observing it and trying to farther understand it. It can include the 5 senses but I was mainly referring to our multidimensional senses like ESP related senses, and energy perception. Currently when the shift occurs for the most part I will remain spatially locked relativistically to the spot where and when the shift occurred but I can also spatially move during the duration of the nonlinear time experience phenomenon, yeah strange how a nonlinear time phenomenon can have a duration of how long it lasts for because within the sphere time continues normally in sync with my phone/watch/etc or they may get a little flakey/wonky until the phenomenon ends and my phone re-syncs to the cell towers. From what I experienced so far is time can slow down or speed up but only outside of the 10 foot radius. Example 5 hours could go by and it only feel like 5-20minutes to me. I hope this explanation helps you to understand this a little more :)

Isn't it the same thing as being shy? I'm kinda shy when it comes to some stuff. I like to socialize but I can't just go ahead and ask someone face to face to be my friend for no reason or because "I like you". I really wonder how can people say jokes or prank others but they usually get positive reactions. I don't mind asking strangers if I want to know something or talk to them about something 'specific', but I can't just go ahead and talk to them about anything as if I know them. My friend didn't like getting into his classes when he's late like 10 mins and everyone's there. He just goes back home. He hates being the one attracting people's attention for something bad even if he didn't do it but happened to someone just close to him and he's the only one there who can't do anything about it. Though, he's has been doing good in the recent years cause according to him, he kept telling himself "There are 8 billion people in this world, I'm normal just like everyone else. I shouldn't care about some 5 people talking negatively. Not like I did something to be on the News". He really did fight hard for it, he barely cares nowadays. He still likes privacy more fearing people will comment on what he did or what he said, more like misjudgment. However, I know he was shy, just shy.

Aren't you just extremely shy? Sorry for the long post, I hope I made some sense >.>

@keikokusanagi I appreciate the rant. It's alright to let it out.

@Mahjack When I feel comfortable, I'm open while I talk to someone. I'll talk a lot if I'm talking about topics that interest me. I'm quiet if I feel content and want to listen. I want to be more comfortable talking to people. The reason I'm not comfortable is because I'm afraid of being judged negatively, not being understood, being laughed at, being made fun of, not knowing what to say or ask, and being taken advantage of. I'm aware that I must not care about how I'm perceived. It doesn't matter what people think of me. However, I'm afraid of the discomfort and pain I can feel if I'm bothered by what anyone thinks of me. I'm still working on desensitizing myself from ridicule or negative remarks. The more exposure I have with people who interact with me negatively, the more immune I am to their hurtful comments. The more exposure I have with people who interact with me positively, the more I believe there are people who treat others with kindness, respect, and compassion.

I'm actually quite fine with it because it helps me notice signs from others that they are not understandable of how bad my anxiety is, and shouldn't try to force issues. Plus is helps me identify with a lot of help with being highly empathic I tend to feel the emotions of others and how they are before they even say a word. Keeps me away from the creepy people so yeah I have no problem with it (my anxiety). I still go outside and stuff it's just most of the time I am only focused on getting from point A to point B and not want to have social interactions on the way unless I have already met up with a friend of mine whom I intending to socialize with then I will talk to my friend but if someone comes along who sets off my anxiety from their presence I stop talking and stay silent until they are far enough away.

@keikokusanagi When you said, “experiment with what can be done like trying to control when I can shift into nonlinear time at will which would be awesome and very useful, ” are you talking about visualizing an outcome you want to happen in your mind? By, “have my mind go entirely blank also known as thought without thought,” do you mean dissociation? I like the times I stumble upon things by shear accident. Someone can give us instructions, but knowing how to actually do it, comes from experiencing and then stumbling into it by accident—having an aha moment. By, “heighten my awareness,” does that include heightening your five senses? I’m asking these questions because I don’t want to misunderstand what you’re saying. We can slow down time or speed it up.

@keikokusanagi I understand what you mean when you said, "I can just about see all possible outcomes what would happen if I say one thing over another or not say anything at all." I do that too. It's fun for me to do--anything about strategy, choices, and what different paths can lead to. I have a problem with being vulnerable, allowing other people to see or know my emotions. I like keeping my feelings a mystery. If people don't know how I feel, they can't know if their behavior has an affect on me. I'm aware and I believe that expressing our emotions isn't a weakness, but I don't like being pitied if I cry or look sad, hopeless, or depressed. I don't see you rambling. What you've said is related to the current topic we're discussing. We're all adding our own perspective on this topic.

The distortion field is separate from the meditation part from what I was trying to elaborate on :) I was talking about a couple of related topics in the same post(s).

I can sit still and quiet for hours on end, the distortion field only occurs when the nonlinear time shifting occurs which every time so far that I have experience has occurred without me consciously willing it too, and mainly trying to figure out how I can make it so I can do it at will, and I am getting closer to being able to do this. :)

I have no idea how I was able to get to that degree of meditation it just happened the first time I tried it when I was 7 and it just happened.

It is and it isn't zoning out kind of hard to explain you have to experience this for yourself to fully understand it. :)

Ahh ok and it's Keiko btw :P , and ahh I see ok.

To truly understand sometimes of where I am coming from with certain discussions or my unorthodox ways of thinking try to raise/heighten your awareness of things around you, within you, and what most people don't pay attention to, and you start to perceive some really interesting/intriguing things though sometimes one might not want to see a particular thing but all in all it's quite a unique insight/experience into trying to understand things in what we call "reality" and things cats stare at out of no where it seems, as an example. Wait we at 8 billion people already? I thought it was anywheres from 6.4billion to 7.3billion people?

Yeah beyond what most people would consider "reality" the 3 dimensional reality most people are most comfortable with well 4D if you count space-time as a dimension. I can meditate on the fly when walking/standing/sitting and have my mind go entirely blank also known as thought without thought and just take everything in and experiment with what can be done like trying to control when I can shift into nonlinear time at will which would be awesome and very useful. The reason why I can do this degree of meditation is because I mainly use to use it as a defence mechanism to escape or go into a zen like state from being physically abused by my "father" when I was 6 turning 7 until about 11-13yrs old.

@joahola98wj Thank you :)
Yeah I over analyze and overthink things too much myself like how the person perceives me, and there is at times when I don't care how someone perceives me but there are other times when it does get to me. The discomfort and awkwardness I get sometimes by being around certain people becomes unbearable and I must leave. I don't like being laughed at, being judged negatively, not being understood, mocked and made fun of, not knowing what to say is the actually highest on my list of why I don't talk very much, and I can't tolerate being taken advantage of either.

I can relate with the not liking to talk for the sake of talking and only talk when I have something important to say. Also I have the same thing where if I am pressured to to talk I shutdown/freeze and tend to not speak for a long time until I feel like I have something to say and not just spew vacuous crap like so many other people do who are so extroverted and not aware that not everyone is like them, which really irritates me when an extrovert says for me to "speak up" yeah way to help my Severe General Social Anxiety any you apathetic prick. Sorry about the rant.

I am really shy, heavily introverted, quiet, and introspective. Which is why I tend to also overthink things because I can just about see all possible outcomes what would happen if I say one thing over another or not say anything at all. I know probably doesn't make sense but that's how I am. Online I can be a little more "virtually vocal" I guess you could word it as. I have boundaries and certain things still that would normally set me off would still set me off but online as long as I don't reply what and how I am feeling no one will know.

Heh, yeah it's the movie that made me start to probe what is outside of what we call reality even farther and more than I had been with just energy manipulation/cultivation/etc. Because it made me really curious and I started to probe the phenomenon I had been experiencing on and off prior but not as often as I experience it now, to see and test if I can go beyond the "barrier" and have greater awareness and developing higher consciousness to start to perceive even more interesting things. :)

@Keikok.., so you're somewhat suffering anxiety? Or do you feel comfortable about it and want to live your whole life like this? Also, it seems like Joahola is actually comfortable like that but I don't know. I don't want to misjudge. Btw, I don't think people are trying to make you suffer when they ask you to speak up, I would've said trying to help you out, making you feel more comfortable with it, unless of course you told me that you don't like being told that then I would stop and try to help you somehow.

Mostly it has happened was when I was standing or walking then paused for a moment then about to walk again when I notice a strange distortion field around me as I slip into nonlinear time, and time outside of the 10 foot radius proceeds to either reverse/slip/skip/leap or some unknown temporal anomaly anywheres from 1-3 seconds to about 1-5 hours. But yeah usually when my mind is quiet or mostly quiet so I can observe things in greater detail.

@keik, it does make sense and you're not really rambling. Everything you said is really understandable. What you both said is normal and not really weird. So don't think for once, that you're different 'in a bad way' from all the 8 billion people on this planet. Btw, it's a nice discussion :)

"but online as long as I don't reply what and how I am feeling no one will know." WELL, NOW I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL ATM!! Just kidding :P

@keikokusanagi That’s cool. It's more than zoning out, I assume. I've never experienced what you've experienced. I can only sit quietly while everything else is happening. Other people can get bored sitting and waiting, but I can sit and wait for as long as I can tolerate doing nothing. I feel content and at peace while meditating. How do you learn to get to your degree of meditation with a distortion field and all that, that you spoke about?

Exactly!!! Yet there are some people who don't understand that, yet I have said to someone, it's like then ask me something and not just expect me to talk about whatever there has to be a point in talking and not just for the sake of talking. Asking questions and follow-up questions is key to keep a possible meaningful conversation going.

Though there is a slight possibility once you shift into nonlinear time you could potentially perceive all possible time-lines and parallel/alternate realities/universes, which can be overwhelming when one is experiencing that. Also the degree of one's awareness and heightened consciousness as the higher it is the more you will be able to perceive.

@Mahjack Sometimes I feel comfortable not talking to anyone, content with being quiet. Other times I don't like feeling uncomfortable while talking to someone, which happens when I'm not in the mood to talk. I also feel uncomfortable not talking to anyone when I wish to talk to someone, but I won't talk due to my discomfort.

Ahh, heh thought about writing a book before but every time I try to do such I get too spacey and can't think of specifically what to write about without going into too many tangents, because more or less that's kind of how my mind works. LoL

Oh wow neat nice to know there is a website that keeps track of that rather interesting :)

@Mahjack No worries. I'm glad you ask questions. :) It happens only in real life. Online, I feel brave to open up about anything, but I set my boundaries of course. We shouldn't reveal too much personal information about ourselves to strangers, acquaintances, or friends online.

Yeah I don't like being told to "speak up" or "use your words" or "you should talk more" I am not somewhat suffering from anxiety I have Severe General Social Anxiety and Panic Disorder and PTSD.

@Keiko, welp sorry haha.

So true. You should start writing books btw, lol.

Shit, sorry. Yeah, 7.4.. I just found this website, didn't know such a thing exists! http://www.worldometers.info/world-population/

@Joah, oh I see. Interesting. I hope I didn't annoy you with my questions. I just like to know more about some stuff. Just to expand my knowledg, if this sounds right 😁 And for what you said, does it apply online too or just irl?

@keikokusanagi Does the nonlinear time shifting happen while you're sitting still and quiet? I understand that it doesn't always happen to you and that you can't will it to happen yet.

Ahh ok :), yeah I agree I don't like being pitied if I cry or if I look sad/hopeless, or depressed. There are times when the flood gates break and I cry and there is no holding it back.

The vibes or energy of a person I am highly sensitive too, so that also makes my anxiety vary from moment to moment depending on that person's energy/vibes they radiate outwards.

@keikokusanagi Impressive. Beyond reality, is that what you mean? The only greater awareness and higher consciousness I experience is when I meditate.

Yeah that and most of the time I am just happy enough just being in the presence of what friends I still have left, talking isn't always necessary for me.

That and I can at will heighten my awareness even higher at a moment's notice when I start to feel something is off or doesn't feel quite right.

@Mahjack I don't consider myself shy. I describe myself as sometimes introverted, quiet, or inhibited because sometimes I can be talkative, loud, and free.

It's also very helpful when it comes to avoiding people who I don't like or they hate me for whatever trivial reason.

How are you open but you barely talk to anyone? Are you comfortable like that or do you suffer depression and want to change or what?

@keikokusanagi What's thread railroading? No need to apologize. I'm fine with going off topic and going off on tangents.

I prefer people to ask me follow-up questions or to ask me more questions instead of telling me that I'm quiet or should talk more.

It feels good to cry, especially when I don't try to resist or fight against it. It hurts if I force myself to stop crying.

You can be open-minded and not barely talk to people, it's just one is picky on who they decide to open up to.

Kind of like the moment most people go and say, "Wow what the fuck was that/what just happened?"

@keikokusanagi I would've overlooked it more than once. :P I got the meaning once you explicitly told me. :)

Ahh :P sometimes there are glitches in perception, it happens nothing to really worry about. :)

Funny how time seems to go all wonky when one is near a crosswalk with the countdown electrical signs.

Anybody can do it they just have to experiment themselves to learn what way works best for them. :)

And interesting things seem to occur when my mind is clear or mostly clear. :)

But might not be able to remember all of it other than the fact of it had occurred.

Yeah it's fun to come up with new creative ways around certain scenarios and obstacles :P

Yay :3, yeah it is rather difficult to all of a sudden try to force yourself not to cry.

@keikokusanagi Haha. I didn't realize the definition was right there in context. :)

Thread rail-roading is usually going off topic and/or off on tangents. :)

Yeah some things you stumble upon by shear accident too.