I Am Hurting
Trying to heal...[i][b]alone[/b][/i] with no emotional support is so very difficult, but one tiny step at a time, I am doing it. So when I join a support group that's supposed to support, and then get someone make false and unfounded accusations against me for no reason, other than whatever is going on in their own mind, takes me back a step or two in my healing process.
Why? Because trying to heal from decades of abusive behavior from your partner, takes time, especially with no emotional support, so when another starts throwing malicious barbs your way, it feels just like your ex again...like its a continuation of the abuse.
Unfortunately, it draws me back even further from men (yes, it was a man, with a couple of others backing him, and disregarding his attack on me), and trying to trust men again (to be kind and reasonable people) is one of my challenges. When I feel attacked by a man, and it's been twice now, it just destroys the work I've already put in to get this far.
I am trying not to hate men, but I tell you, there are many men who turn sensitive and respectable women right off the whole species, and that is extremely sad.
Why? Because trying to heal from decades of abusive behavior from your partner, takes time, especially with no emotional support, so when another starts throwing malicious barbs your way, it feels just like your ex again...like its a continuation of the abuse.
Unfortunately, it draws me back even further from men (yes, it was a man, with a couple of others backing him, and disregarding his attack on me), and trying to trust men again (to be kind and reasonable people) is one of my challenges. When I feel attacked by a man, and it's been twice now, it just destroys the work I've already put in to get this far.
I am trying not to hate men, but I tell you, there are many men who turn sensitive and respectable women right off the whole species, and that is extremely sad.
