I Feel Sad

My life is pretty good - filled with ups, downs and challenges like everyone else. It's a rare thing for me to feel sad these days, but this morning I've woken up feeling sad. I had a fairly odd dream which no doubt has contributed to my emotional state.

I rarely reflect upon this, but this morning I'm wondering why I've had no one in my life who truly loves me. I had a difficult relationship with my parents whose love is conditional. I was married to someone i didn't love and who didn't love me. I've had a few relationships post divorce. 2 of which were exceptionally unhealthy and only perpetuated the understanding of the value I hold.

Stupid decisions with long reaching consequences.

I am a very happy single person, but this morning I am questioning if that is because every single relationship I've had with a male has been filled with disappointment and sadness.

Ughhhh such drivel seeping out of me today!