I got home after work and fell asleep as soon as I sat down

Then woke up to my heart racing.

It is never good for me to wake an hour or two after drifting off. It needs be at least 4 hours after. Otherwise my brain lacks all inhibitions, I get stuck in semi sleep state. Mumble nonsense. Do crazy things. My vocabulary is all mixed up and senseless. I am doing fine here, it doesn't mean I can do it consistently. I am very tired.

I think I am going back to sleep as soon as my siblings respond to the message. And maybe not go to work tomorrow. Maybe I should pause a little.