People who want to "off" themselves, Question:

Do you work? What are your jobs?

Do you call out often?

How do you deal with having a job?

Me: Been working since 18, the "norm"? I probably seem very functioning in society as far as work goes anyway. I am curious about the "hiders" though.

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Miram · 31-35, F

I don't have that urge anymore, and I am sorry you struggle with the pain.

Yes, being functional and busy didn't really weight much in it for me back then. I always had to go home to my thoughts and feelings eventually. I find that it is easy to be dismissive of yourself when you constantly put others first, and yet many times it makes those feelings even more powerful because your whole existence is not yours. It feels like a trap and it gets more and more powerful, the more it is ignored.

That was the experience for me at least.

HellsBelle · F

@Miram how don't you have the urge any more?

Miram · 31-35, F

@HellsBelle Because I am healing maybe. I cannot pin it down to a single reason or method since I have tried lot of things and approaches from therapy to spirituality and even medications. While I still struggle with helplessness facing the imperfections of this world and its horrors, I think I processed most of my own childhood traumas and I feel content with my place in this world finally.